Running

Hi guys!! :) I've decided to start running more regulary because I really enjoy doing it! The only problem I have is getting off my ass and going out because I'm just that laszy!!!!
But I went running with my mum today, we went very slow cuz I'm not very fit! I think we were going about 1 mile every 10min which I know is slow but I'm a beginner! :)
So I managed to run all the way this time which was about a 35min run so only 3 1/2 miles but I was really chuffed because last time I went running I died after 15min and had to take a break!!!!
So my total number of calories today= 625 which isn't bad but could be better!
I'm not sure how much I weigh because I'm trying to limit the amount of times I weigh myself because my weight always seems to fluctuate :/
Haha on Wednesday in my biology lesson we got given a BMI healthy weight table thing and according to that I am underweight!! :D but I said my weight was higher than it really was because I didnt want people giving me funny looks so I said I was 107 pounds, that put me right on the healthy weight!
Cya soon guys xxx

*only the dead are truly beautiful*

My girlfriend!

Hi guys!! So today I had 635calories and that was after I'd gone kickboxing for an hour! So my number of calories was a bit high today :/
My girlfriend found out about my blog! Ok so I was in a very depressed mood, I get these sometimes and I've self harmed in the past :(
So I was ranting to her about how nobody knows the real me...blah...blah...blah! Basically a whole pile of shit that just seemed to be coming out of me! And I mentioned this blog and she read it and she's not happy :/ like really not impressed and kinda worried! So I'm not sure what to do now :S


Thanks for all your support guys xxxx


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angela- I'm not really on a proper diet, ive tried the ABC one before but I couldn't stick to it :/ now I just try and eat breakfast, a small lunch and a small tea with no stacks in between and not a lot of fatty foods or calories!!

~christy~ - thanks for all the support! I'm so happy that I'm almost there! XD and thanks for the tips about parents, I'm definitely gonna use them! :)

I love this diet!!

Hi guys!! :) my diets going really great at the mo and I've lost another 2 pounds so now I'm 5ft 4 and weigh 98 pounds giving me a bmi of 16.8!!!!! XD I'm so happy and I no longer get as hungry as I did at the start :D today I had 534 calories and I feel FAB!! :D
Speak soon xxx

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100!!!!!!! XD

Hi guys!!! This is a really short post to say, I REACHED 100 POUNDS!!!!
I'm 5ft 4 and weigh 100 pounds giving me a bmi of 17.2!!!! XD
Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!! Only 5 pounds left till my goal weight!!!!
But to be honest I'm thinking of lowering my gw to 90 pounds, what do you think?! :D
Stay strong guys xxxxxx

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Thank god!!

Hi guys!!
I know I haven't posted in ages and that's cuz I've been gaining :'( but now I'm back to 101 pounds!!! YAY!!! :D
So not much has been happening really, my bf cane over today! It was the first time he'd met my parents and it was quite awkward! But it went ok in the end! :D
That's all I have to say really!
Stay strong
XxxxxxX

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Parents! :/

Hi guys! I'm not doing so great on my diet :/ yesterday was above a 1000 calories (I cried too) and today's in the 800s!!!
I'm having a hard time eating less with my parents round so if anyone has any tips at all please comment below! I don't wanna be fat :'(

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Nails!!!

Hi guys!! Ok so for allllllll my life I've bitten my nails but a few months ago I decided to stop for the final time and now I have the most beautiful long nails in the world!!! :D I'm actually in love with them and bought my self to more nail polishes today as a little well done treat :D
So, if I can be strong enough to stop biting my nails I can also be strong enough to lose weight!! :D I can do it :) I'm still the sane weight as yesterday (that's not really surprising lol :p ) but I'm planning on losing about 2/3 pounds next week :)
my total number of calories for today is 390!!! I'm not complaining there!! :D

Oh and ive also started planning how to tell my parents I'm bisexual (no hate!) any ideas? :)
Love you all xxx and heelllloooo to my new followers you guys rock! <3

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Again?!

Ok so I was ill again today :/ I went in to school and 1/2 an hour before my exam I threw up!! :( but I had to do the exam anyway! So I took it and then went home :) IT WAS SOOO HARD :(
Anyway because I'm not having anything else to eat today so my total calories for today is 546 :)

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~christy~ thanks hun, I think the exam went ok but it was really hard especially because I wasn't feeling very well! :/ oh and I'm 5ft 4 :) how tall are you? xx

Be careful what you wish for!!

Hi guys :) remember me saying in my last post that I felt like I needed to purge? Well I got my wish....kinda :/ I've been ill these past few days and been throwing up left right and centre! :( it hasn't been pleasant!!
I wouldn't go in tmoz but I have a gcse English exam which I can't miss so I'll just have to grin and bare it :/
On a much more positive note my total no. of calories today is 569 :) so thats ok :) ooh and I've lost a tad more weight and now weigh 101 pounds!! :D
I'm getting so excited about how close I am to my goal of 95lb, I'm only 6 pounds off!!!!! :D

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:)

Hi guys!! So I think the exam went ok today, I hope I got an A but I'm not sure :/ but oh well!! Biology tomorrow, I haven't revised tonight though because I had TONS of Maths homework :( I hate Maths!!

So total calorie intake for today was HUGE!!! I swear I've gained about 4 pounds!! I haven't weighed myself and no way am I going to tonight!! :O
My friends are the issue, if you don't eat or don't eat much they instantly become really suspicious and cause a huge fuss if you don't eat :/
I feel so fat and disgusting and I would purge except I'm too scared too!! I think I'm going to fast tomorrow to make up for it today :/

~Christy~ thanks for all your support your so nice :) my exam went ok thanks. But after today I think my 95 pound goal is a little further away than before :/ xx

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Exams!! :(

Hi guys :) I'm like happy and sad today!! I'm happy because I only had 399cals today which is so much better than I have been doing :) and also I weighed myself tonight, after I'd just had something for tea and guess what?! I weigh 102 pounds!!!! :D <3 i've lost about 10 pounds since I started this diet and that wasn't even a week ago!!!! (ok so that's probs not healthy, but who cares?! :D )
Oh yeah the sad bit! It's the last day of the hols today and I have exams into the 21st June. My first one is tomorrow and it's business studies :( then on Tuesday I have biology and then on Friday I have English and after that I forget :/ I have geography, chemistry, physics and then my last exam is Maths on the 21st! :(
That's like a month of exams!! :O I well at least I'm closer to my 95 pound weight goal!! :D
Love you all xoxo

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Piercing?

Hi guys! I'm not even gonna talk about my calorie intake for today (and I thought yesterday was bad?! :'( ) anyway I'm trying to decide what piercing to get out of
1) Tongue
2) belly button
3) Monroe
4) snake bites

Do you guys have any ideas? You can see my profile pic which do you think would look the nicest? Thanks guys xx

Oh and thanks for all the comments yesterday you guys are so supportive and kind <3 I don't know what I'd do without you xoxo

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Oh crap!

I always eat too much! I do so well and then I just eat and eat and eat and I'm too scared to purge because sick makes me sick! I've had a total of 683cal today!! And some of that was stuff like pork pies (my weakness) and shortbread mixture!! :'(
I feel so fat and horrible! My no. of calories would have been in the 1000s but I did a lot of exercise to try and burn it off! Why am I so pathetic, weak and FAT?! :'(

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Faaatttt

Hi guys :) today I went shopping with my mum and bought some blue converse!!! Their really cool and sooo practical! I'm so happy with them! <3
But OMG!! you would not believe how much food I ate today!!! OMG! I feel so faaatttt!!! :'( but to be honest, my overall calories didn't turn out that bad as I did a lot of exercise today too :D so here we go:
1/2 a weetabix (dry) = 67cal
Hoisin duck wrap :'( = 390cal!!!!
Pizza and starters = 531! OMFG!
Club biscuit = 115cal
Drinks = 93cal
But I did
Kickboxing = -513cal
Walking for 2hrs = -254

Meaning today's total no. of calories = 429!
It's not too bad but I feel so full and so fat! Pizza and a duck wrap WTF was I thinking?! I feel like throwing it all back up :'(

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Too much!

So today we had to go to school even though it's the holidays over here! :( it wasn't so bad though we only had to stay until 11:30 and then me and my friends went down town to watch the hangover 2!! :D it was so funny! I've never laughed so much in my life. And then afterwards my girlfriend came back to mine (I'm bi by the way) and we went for a nice walk along the beach :) but I had a bit too much to eat today and I feel sick :'( I've eaten:
1/2 a weetabix (dry) = 67cal
1/2 a cheese and onion pasty :( = 190cal
Chicken stir fry D: = 813cal
2 cups of tea = 22cal
Walking for 85min = -209cal
Sit ups for 10min = -66cal

No. of calories = 817cal :(
I feel like crying now! I've eaten wayyyy to much :(

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